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I have been in a daze the last few months.

I have taken 3 months off work. This was to look after mum as the breast cancer moved from her brain to her eyes and kidneys. Her oncologist gave her a max of 4 months...this was in August.

2 weeks after I took my leave, things got so bad we had to put her in a hospice. 7 days later she passed away.

I haven’t cried that much. I feel wretched but I have to still look after my dad and that to an extent keeps the emotions at bay. Of course he is devastated. They were together over 60 years. They really truly were soul mates.

I miss her so much. For the last year of her life I looked after all of her personal care and we grew closer than ever before. I keep on seeing things she would like, news I would like to tell her, advice I want her to give.

But I am getting better. I have asked for another 2 weeks off work. I wish I could take 2 years! lol

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the_jester1
Oct. 21st, 2009 06:30 am (UTC)
*hugs* My heartfelt condolences to you and yours.
weibchenwolf
Oct. 21st, 2009 09:41 am (UTC)
*hugs and loves*
davidbr1
Oct. 21st, 2009 06:16 pm (UTC)
Oh I am so sorry to hear about this. I really wish there was something I could do to help you get through this. It is hard (I know myself only too well just how hard), but you will eventually get through this period.

Take car of yourself.
natalya_dostova
Oct. 21st, 2009 10:41 pm (UTC)
*hugs hugs hugs* we're still here, whenever you want us.
mistressfi
Oct. 22nd, 2009 01:41 am (UTC)
My darling girl....I am so sorry for your loss.
I wish I could come and see you.
I will write a paper letter as soon as i leave this internet caf. I was thinking of you this morning and wondered what had happened to you.
Hugs you tight.
similicious
Oct. 22nd, 2009 02:12 am (UTC)
*hugs*
*hugs*

My sincerest condolences to you beautiful girl.

Maybe Ms Fi and I should do a road trip down to see you, when you're ready : )
p_stop
Oct. 22nd, 2009 10:19 pm (UTC)
Yes please!
I'm ready! lol
usekh
Oct. 24th, 2009 11:03 am (UTC)
*Hugs*I am so sorry, I have some idea of what you are going through, and if you ever want to talk let me know.
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